I hope you like the new look of my blog. I changed it from a simple two-column blog to three columns. I personally think this is more attractive, instead of having everything on the right side. I got rid of ZoomCloud. Also, I added links on the right side of the blog to allow a reader to subscribe to the blog's feed using either their blog reader or email. I changed the size of the margins, too, to allow everything to fit on a wider page. Earlier last week and this weekend, I added a widget that will easily allow reader to bookmark this blog using their favorite bookmarking service, and I added a Google AdSense ad on the left side of the blog. (Yes, like everyone else, I'm trying to make a living and will optimize my opportunities to do so, along with filling out rebates every month and clipping coupons.) Last but not least, I made the blogger bar at the top of the blog transparent. You cannot see it unless you run your mouse over the top of the blog.
Let me know how you feel about these changes! I've worked on this blog a number of hours today, and as usual I'm not caught up on comments or emails, but I hope to be tomorrow. Thanks for being patient and for commenting and emailing.
11 comments:
Very fine, you suprised me again, how you figure out how to do these things, I am just lost it seems. Peace and love to your Sophia.
Hi Jim,
I'm glad you like the changes. What I did, anyone can do. It just takes a bit of Google searches and copying and pasting of code, very easy to do with easy instructions you can follow. There are a lot of Blogger hacks out there, just do a Google search for "Blogger hack".
Love to you, too.
I had much luck again yesterday;
I found a Dutch translation
of Ken Wilber's Grace and Grit
among the second-hand books.
I paid half a euro for it;
it was thick and impressive.
It was thrown out of a library
perhaps due to lack of readership.
But who knows Wilber in a back country
like Siddeburen inspite of internet?
Today I had to see Sophia again.
She was so beautiful and irresistible
I couldn't help looking into her eyes
and holding them as long as I could.
She didn't look away; she welcomed it.
If I were younger she was so mine.
I wore a gray soft-leather jacket
over my tight dark-blue sweater;
I almost looked like a sex symbol.
The pretty and tall receptionist
kept smiling at me; she probably
liked playing with a china doll.
In her office, Sophia looked even
more impressive; she seemed to know
what she was doing and saying.
We went straight to business;
We listened to each other intently.
I couldn't help wanting to charm her.
The little child in me looked sad
and unsure of himself and she felt it.
I think I could be a very good actor
given the same chance as Brad Pitt.
But I really liked her and I didn't
want to deceive her, honestly.
I felt one with her, ecstatic.
Only my sense of propriety
kept me from making her mine.
Anyway she couldn't help mothering me
altho she could have been my daughter.
While looking for her office
I stopped a girl to ask the way
I noticed how pretty she was;
She reminded me of a cousin of mine;
she has the same eyes and face.
I looked deep into her eyes;
she recoiled as if she felt
the sexual energy enter her.
Her eyes looked dazed following me
as I speeded away towards my destination,
looking back at her now and then.
(I think I have a very strong imagination.
It's me and my sexual energy again.)
This morning I just saw a tv show.
It was about people who suddenly
found themselves alone after divorce
or the death of the partner.
Usually the man dies before
his wife leaving plenty of women
for those who are luckier
to survive and to live longer.
Anyway, it didn't bother me.
I still have plenty of time
and I'm not that desperate yet.
I don't know why I thought of you when I saw this; hoping its not insulting?
These spiritual windowshoppers,
who idly ask, 'How much is that?' Oh, I'm just looking.
They handle a hundred items and put them down,
shadows with no capital.
What is spent is love and two eyes wet with weeping.
But these walk into a shop,
and their whole lives pass suddenly in that moment,
in that shop.
Where did you go? "Nowhere."
What did you have to eat? "Nothing much."
Even if you don't know what you want,
buy _something,_ to be part of the exchanging flow.
Start a huge, foolish project,
like Noah.
It makes absolutely no difference
what people think of you.
Rumi, 'We Are Three', Mathnawi VI, 831-845
I liked your last poem and copied it for my collection. I Thought you wouldn't mind.
Sigurd,
Alright, some Ken Wilber! He's the guy that wrote that letter that I put on my blog a few posts back. I think the title of that post was "Sophia in the Universe" or something like that. If I remember correctly, he's "integral", even though I'm not for sure what that means in relation to Mr. Wilber. I think there is also something coming from him called "Spiral Dynamics". I haven't looked into it, yet. If you read the book, be sure to let me know what you think about it.
If you're sexually frustrated right now, as in "not getting any", perhaps you should take-up lucid dreaming. Have you ever tried it? If not, I recommend a book by Dr. Stephen Laberge called _Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming_. Another good place to stop at would be this page:
http://www.lucidity.com/
The reason I mention this, is because if you get good enough at lucid dreaming, you can consciously have sex in your dreams with anyone you want! Practice!!
Hi Goatman,
No, it's not insulting at all. I'm not insulted easily.
I am, quite admittedly, a spiritual windowshopper after all! As you well know I've been looking all over the place.
As Rumi has advised in his poem, I've already started to make payments on a particular philosophy. I don't know that I've bought into it completely yet, but it has managed to touch me where others have not touched me yet, or at least, it's touched me more deeply than some others. And that, is nonduality.
Goatman,
I forgot in my last comment: You can have any poem of mine that you like. I'm happy you enjoyed it. Have a very pleasant weekend!
Sophia,
Well, actually I'm not into Ken Wilber very much. I tend to mistrust intellectuals and pseudo-intellectuals and people who try to collect "wisdom" to write books and give lectures. I've listened to his interviews by Sounds True. And I got the idea that he subscribes to a lot of beliefs and traditional ideas. Like he is more into New Age than anything else. And I tend to mistrust New Age people too. I'm sorry for saying this.
I might read the book called "Grace and Grit" as soon as I have the time. Next week I will be working again half-days for two weeks and then see Sophia, my coach, again and see how it goes, while working on some of my everyday difficulties and problems. My main problem really is that I tend to procrastinate. And that I'm paying too much taxes. I'm planning to sell my car too so I could have more spending money.
Yes, I'm just too busy. I'm still going thru my separation with my wife and children. I'm not ready to become involved yet. Maybe I will ask Sophia one day or the receptionist as soon as the counseling is over. They seem to be looking for dates. ;>) Sophia seems to be a good catch, if I want a short relationship. She's quite independent and lives alone; she's at a "desperate" age, if you know what I mean. ;>)
Yes, I guess you are right about me having fear of rejection. It's something I need to get used to.
I also have been sleeping with my ex for a while. But realized it wasn't a good idea anymore. I have to get over her as soon as possible.
Well, thanks for mentioning this.
Also, I might try the tantric path to love and sex. Without necessarily going to a teacher or a group. In order to learn a few things. Like how to make love better. ;>)
I thought I was very good at it because I could last very long in bed. But I realized it's not the quantity but quality that matters. I guess ex-wife and I were were both selfish people when it came to love and sex.
Any more suggestions?
I think I should be reading John Gray's Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus.
Well I tend to be very conservative in lots of things. I should blame Jesus for this.
Sigurd,
After reading the sample you gave me in another post of Ken Wilber's writing, I don't think I'd enjoy reading him much myself. I get the feeling he tries too hard to talk above everyone, or he tries to come off as an intellectual. It's like the men in Mensa. Listen, I've got an I.Q. that is more than enough to get into Mensa, but I can't STAND a lot of the men in that crowd because they're so pretentious! A few of the women are like that, too. I'm not saying "men" because I'm sexist or anything. It's just been my experience that a larger majority of the men that are in mensa are pretentious as opposed to the percentage of women that are pretentious. A friend of mine, Mr. Jim, dear sweet Jim, once said something very funny about this, and I can't dare repeat it on this blog because, well, it involves a circle and that is all I'll say!
Anyway, enough of that, I can get too dramatic about the subject of people trying too hard to seem better than others.
I procrastinate, too. It's one of my WORST habits. Maybe I'm lazy. But I think it's because I have to constantly be mentally and intellectually stimulated. (*NOTE* I can want to be intellectually stimulated without coming across as an intellectual.) I put everything else, I mean EVERYTHING else behind me and stay in my head. Do you think you're the same way? I kind of have a feeling that you are. I don't know, it's just something about you.
I know you're in a lot of pain over separating from your wife. I'm sorry, and I wish I could take away your pain. I could say what everyone else says, that "time heals everything," but I'll just tell you to stay strong. This is probably why you're having problems at work. Try not to think about it. Get a pet. Do you have any pets? What do you think about cats? There are many homeless cats in this world that could use a daddy like you! What you need is to find something to take your mind off it, something to put you in the present moment. Don't laugh at this, but buy yourself a coloring book and some crayons and get coloring! I don't care how old you are, it's very therapeutic, trying to stay within the lines.
I wish you'd send me an email so I could have your email address, then I could say more, probably.
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