Saturday, June 21, 2008

Resuscitation

Every night, I spend some time in my head talking to a memory, but it doesn't respond. I don't mind the one-sided conversation, because at least I'm giving the memory breath, keeping it alive.

20 comments:

Siegfried said...

We all talk to ourselves.
This is normal.
We self-hypnotize ourselves. And then self-medicate.
However, try substituting obsessive thoughts with assertive mantras.
Like: Frankly, I don't give a damn.

Siegfried said...

My favorite it at the moment is:
What I think is what matters. To me.

Sophia said...

But then I'd be lying to myself.

"To thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man." ~Polonius

Sophia said...

Sometimes I imagine that what matters to me matters to someone else. It's delusional thinking.

Siegfried said...

I used to memorize and recite Scriptures. To ward off evil spirits.
But I realized there is only One Spirit. So I stopped doing it.
These days I create my own mantras to overcome stupidity and fear.
Like: I believe in myself. I am me.

Siegfried said...

I don't give a damn what others think. I think for myself. I am true to myself. No matter how wrong I am.
I don't let no Pilate or Jesus judge and condemn me.

Siegfried said...

I take responsibilty for my thoughts, emotions and actions. I try to be independent. And I encourage others to be independent. To think for themselves.

Siegfried said...

Find your center. Center yourself. Be the center.

Siegfried said...

Guess what. I am a nerd.

Sophia said...

"Oh he loves me, he loves me! We're soulmates! I can feel the energy in my body verify this truth. The universe told me so. He knows it, too! He's as crazy about me as I am him!"

When in truth, the thinker of these thoughts has no idea what the other person thinks. He/she imagined that the other person was in love with them, and has no proof to confirm such thoughts.

Sophia said...

Hehee... I'm a nerd, too. Maybe that's why we get along so well.

I love nerds. I especially like unusual people.

Siegfried said...

Love is an illusion. It's just Chemistry. Or Alchemy.
An Obsession. Long enough to make couples want to have and raise children.

Siegfried said...

But what else is there?

Sophia said...

Love without worrying about whether or not you'll have sex is real love. Love transcends the physical.

You can have sex on the brain, sure. But imagine how wonderful it would be to lust after the same person for a long time simply because you never gave in. Once you give in, sex with the same person gets boring. But it can never get boring if you never start.

Siegfried said...

I know what you mean. But what about bonding thru the sexual act? Isn't physical sex the most intimate thing? Don't you want to be intimate? To be equal with someone?

Sophia said...

Brain sex is nice, too. A melding of the minds....

Don't get me wrong, I fantasize a lot about sex. :) It's just magical to even have someone to fantasize about.

Siegfried said...

I have no response to that.
-- Angelica

Sophia said...

Hehee... now you tell me.

Siegfried said...

Well, actually you just described my way of life.

Sophia said...

Maybe that's because I have a good idea (sort of) of what you're like? :)