Dream Date April 5, 2007

My dream recall has gotten rusty the past week. This morning I tried to remember my dream the moment I turned off the alarm clock. All during my shower I focused, trying to bring forth some image from the dream. Finally, towards the end of my shower, some bits and pieces came back to me. This is what I have, although it is not the entire dream:

I am looking at a young woman; she has bulging eyes. They are not real eyes, but fake. She reaches up and pulls the fake eyes out of her eye sockets. Underneath, are her real eyes.

In another part of the dream, I am hugging a beige/white stuffed gorilla, like a child would hold a stuffed toy.

This morning I did a Google search for "albino gorilla" and found this: http://www.pbs.org/wnet/nature/snowflake/index.html

Snowflake is the only known albino gorilla. He lived nearly 40 years.

I take from this dream that I am holding on to something rare and special. Obviously in waking life it is not a gorilla. I believe it is related to my spiritual journey. What am I holding on to that is so special?

The dream about the eyes might reflect that once I was seeing a false reality, but now I am beginning to see what really is. Or perhaps, once I was blind but now I can see.

I look-up "gorilla" in an online dream dictionary and find this:

"To see a gorilla in your dream, suggests that you may be too 'over the top' in your behaviour. Perhaps you are compensating for your rigidity and stiffness in your waking life. Alternatively, the gorilla symbolizes your primitive impulses, wild nature and repressed sexual energy."

Should we believe dream dictionaries?

These are just my takes on the dream. What are yours?

Gateway Experience Journal April 4, 2007

I began the first lesson in the Gateway Experience put out by The Monroe Institute. I am going to be keeping a journal as it recommends; this is the first entry.

My mood tonight starting out was slightly frustrated and aggrevated, but only due to computer hardware issues. I turned out the light and laid back in my recliner in the computer room, took off my shoes and glasses. As directed, I created a box in my mind to put all my concerns into. Some of the things I stuffed into this box were computers, money, blogs, husbands, friends, just about anything that's been on my mind lately, good or bad. The idea is to have a mind that is not cluttered with thoughts. As with regular meditation, the idea is to have a quiet mind.

The Gateway Experience plays a multitude of sounds and tones, similar to binaural beats. Different tones are played in each ear, so that the brain acts as a third ear which creates it's own tone. It's called "hemi-sync". If you'd like to know more about it, look it up.

We worked on breathing exercises, breathing in while opening my eyes and imagining new fresh energy filling up my body and head, exhaling out while closing my eyes and imagining old stale energy leaving my body through my breath. Later, I chanted tones as I exhaled.

I began to feel as though I were floating. This isn't really the best description of what I was feeling. It felt like gravity wanted to pull me down farther than the chair was allowing. My hands tingled.

At the end, the speaker said, "When I count down to one you will be awake and alert." I was so relaxed in what is known as "Focus 3" that I couldn't conceive of coming out of it alert. I thought surely I would be sleepy afterwards. But, while he counted down, some new tones were played and sure enough after he got to one and I opened my eyes I felt refreshed.

I had fun during this session. There are quite a few lessons and I am unsure of what pace I should be going right now. I wonder to myself if I should do the first lesson again the next few nights or if I should just keep going forward and progressing. I'll probably look around the Internet and see how fast other people have gone.

Thank you to my mate in Australia for sending me this wonderful gift.

The Complete Dream Journal

I have compiled all of my recorded dreams into one dream journal. I began writing down dreams in 1999. I didn't write down all of them in the beginning, like I do now. I'll still post new dreams to this blog, but if you're interested in reading all the dreams I've ever written down, visit my dream journal at http://sophiasdreams.blogspot.com/ Just a note, though, that some of these dreams are very personal, and you can see how much I've grown over the years. If you're offended by cusswords, sex or anything else, don't read it. I know I'm being very open, but I thought it was interesting to work on this project so that I could see how much I've grown since 1999.

I may be missing a dream here or there. When I find them and post them, I'll let you know here.

Feel free to comment on any dream.

The Desk

When I am home, this is where I do my computing. Some of the things seen are a stack of CDs from the library, a stack of puzzle books (mostly logic type), the obvious (keyboard, mouse, etc)., a microphone (laying on top of the PC), a framed picture of me and my dad, a bottle of sweet pea lotion, two folders - one of bills that need to be paid (currently empty, yay!) and one of paid bills, the cable modem, a speaker.

I now tag anyone who reads this to do the same. Think of it as a getting-to-know-you process.

Two More Felines

My little "fuzzy bear" with a good book.

(An older picture. 2000?)

Fuzzy bear again, 2006.
She is another of my guardian angels.
I call her my angel because she fell out of the heavens into my arms.
(In real life, she was a stray who jumped out of a tree into my arms the first day I saw her.)

Me and Peeps, 2005

Now all of the feline variety of my guardian angels have been displayed on my blog. Soon, I'll introduce you to the queen of the house, our dog.

Slowly, little by little, I'll show you more of my world.

Dreamku, Inspired by Roswila

I landed on Roswila's blog again today. (I have "met" her before in the past on a completely different route.) She has been writing what she calls "Dreamku", which are haiku poems inspired by dreams. I asked her if she'd mind if I do the same, and she greatly inspired me to do so, so here goes:

Cups in the hallway
Will I drink yellow or blue
I choose to see truth

Meditation Vision

While meditating last night I had a vision of a yellow horse.

I mention this because one of the fluids in the cups from last night's dream was yellow.

I type "yellow horse" in Google and find this:

http://www.yellowhorseman.com/

He is a peace elder named Grandfather Yellow Horse Man.

As with other visions I've had in the past, I will probably email him just to tell him that my vision led me to him. The last time a vision led to a contact, I envisioned the letters I M U N U R I. Those letters led me to a man on a spirituality web site who had those letters as his email address. I contacted him, and luckily he was a spiritual man who understood where I was coming from. I just think that people might like to know that the Universe led me to them in this mysterious way.

Change of E-mail Address

I've changed my email address. Please make note of this change, although I will still continue to check my old email address from time-to-time. The new email address is light.of.sophia@gmail.com

It was difficult to come-up with an address that was available. I wanted something positive. I'm not very creative or poetic, but thought that this address suits me just fine.

Dream Date April 2, 2007

First Dream:

I am walking down the hall at high school. On a table in front of a classroom are cups filled with drinks, some are yellow and some are blue. I grab a blue drink.

I'm heading for the lockers. I try to remember the combination to my locker. I think I remember the numbers being something like 25-26-27. But I hope that my locker-mate is there and already has the locker open.

Second Dream:

I haven't been doing my homework for one of my classes, a math class, to be exact. I ask one of my teachers if it's too late to drop out of the class, so that I won't get a failing grade. She says, "No." Later on, the teacher is passing back homework, and I get some of mine back and realize that I'm not as far behind as I thought I was, so I rethink dropping the class.

Synchronicity Journal April 1, 2007

The night before, on March 31st, I had a couple friends over. The younger friend, named C., asked me if I had ever seen "The Never Ending Story." I answered, "Of course I have. It was one of my favorite movies as a child." Then, last night, the night of April 1st, my father calls me on the phone and says, "I just wanted to let you know that 'The Never Ending Story' is going to be on the t.v. soon."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Neverending_Story

It's possibly one of the most magical children's stories/movies ever.