Sunday, May 23, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Empty
I think I am partially to blame for my friend's suicide yesterday.
For weeks I tried offering him a little bit of comfort.
But I didn't respond to all his needs.
He sent me emails that I didn't respond to.
He reached out to me but I was too much in my own head.
The phone call I got yesterday sent me to my knees.
I know all the nice people are going to try to tell me I'm not to blame, and I appreciate that, but let's be real. I could have done more.
My words of wisdom weren't enough. I could have done more. I could have been more attentive.
I think I am done with words of wisdom.
For weeks I tried offering him a little bit of comfort.
But I didn't respond to all his needs.
He sent me emails that I didn't respond to.
He reached out to me but I was too much in my own head.
The phone call I got yesterday sent me to my knees.
I know all the nice people are going to try to tell me I'm not to blame, and I appreciate that, but let's be real. I could have done more.
My words of wisdom weren't enough. I could have done more. I could have been more attentive.
I think I am done with words of wisdom.
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