Thanks for the holiday wishes and emails.
I've been blogging since 2004 and I think finally I have run out of blogging energy. So, it is not likely that there will be more blog posts here in the near future.
For a long time I've been using Facebook and that is pretty much exclusively where I am, now. If you have a Facebook account you can find me there. Some of you know my real name and therefore it will be easy to find me. If not, send me an email and I'll send you a friend invitation.
Happy New Year to everyone, and thanks for all the visits over the years!
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Lucky Me!!
I love the most amazing man in the world!! Even the gods on Mt. Olympus look upon him with envy.
I am such a lucky woman. :)
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Rihanna - Only Girl (In The World) LYRICS ON SCREEN
You already do make me feel this way, but I like the song anyway. :)
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Musings on Romantic Surrealism
I know what's so disorienting to me, lately, finally....
It's that I'm merging with someone.... I feel like I'm becoming one with the one I'm in love with. I never knew it was possible... or never even imagined that love could be felt on such a level. I will not struggle against it. Instead, I wish I could have known this when I was younger. But, I accept that everything had to be in its place before it could happen.
I'm going to just quit worrying that I'm being obsessive and just accept that this is OK and that I can go with the flow. Love doesn't have to be rational. It's OK that we think so much about our lover when we're in love. If people didn't think so much about their lover or love their lover so much, there wouldn't be beautiful poetry or stories.... or music. All I can say is that it's nice to finally know what has moved so many people to write such things.
All I want to know now is.... how much time goes by in the falling in love stage and being in love stage before I return to sanity? LOL
Would the I Ching Know?
I am slave to my gender and human psychology!!
I am starting to realize just how driven I am by both of these things.
What does one do? Just accept it and go with the flow? Or fight as hard as I can against it?
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Love is Not a Myth
Oh god I'm so in love.
Please, anyone that's been in love, tell me how it was for you. Tell me if you thought about the object of your love 'round the clock, and cared deeply about their well being, and wanted to see them happy, took interest in their interests, wanted to please them, wanted to make love to them....
The good news is, my love knows how I feel and is not at all frightened off by my feelings. In fact, my feelings are reciprocated and I can't think of a more wonderful feeling in the world. It's so intense and this love and this man are the centerpieces of my universe.
My man is a Real Man, and is very knowledgeable and skilled in the ways of completely fulfilling a woman. He is highly intelligent, loving, compassionate, strong (very strong!), caring, dedicated, devoted, forgiving, attractive and so much more.
OK, I just had to brag a little bit.
And I still want to know about others' experiences with falling in love. I admit I want to compare to see just how normal and rational I'm being, but at the same time I know that what we have is unique and simply that nothing compares.
What I Realized Tonight
I found my soul mate.
(Don't worry.... I'm still sane. LOL (if I was to begin with that is....))
What I mean is, I'm not going to go graffiti his name all over the walls or anything, but I truly, on a sane level, believe I have found my soul mate.
Now, don't ask me whether or not the idea of a soul mate in general is sane, because I don't know.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
To Summarize.... (and thank you GOD)
M***** R. makes me feel like I'm living the John Dunbar Theme.
It's nice knowing someone who makes me happy.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Thanks to the Toast of Montrose
He either fears his fate too much,
Or his rewards are small,
Who dares not put it to the touch,
And win, or lose it all
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
my windows rattle, but....
i like to watch the train go by.
and i like magnolias and weeping willows.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Survey
Just wondering if anyone else here has loved someone so much that it felt like their heart was swelling up like a big balloon that was about to pop?
Drunken Authorship
Please disregard the post I made in the middle of the night. I deleted it.
Thou shalt not write blog posts while in a drunken stupor.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Doctor, Please Help!!
Does anyone have a pill for me that can cure love sickness?
Please make it extended release because this love thing is still going strong and I don't see any end in sight.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Double Vision
I know I've stayed up too late when I misread something.
Someone's Facebook status said, "Main goal for today...", but I read it as "MAN goal for today..."
Goodnight.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Life and Love
I am signing a lease on an apartment today.
Good things are happening.
Life and love are two good things to have that I had forgotten about for years.
I really owe the Universe for this, big time.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
It Begins...
I will be a free woman in just a matter of days....
Finally....
Escape from the birdcage....I never imagined possible until now....
This little bird is gonna fly....
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Crazy....
love does funny things...
makes you not want to eat...
makes you unable to sleep...
consumes your every thought...
this is not like me at all....
and yet it is more me than anything else ever....
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Who Cares
someday...
i will be the court jester...
the laughing stock...
the subject of much gossip.
and i won't even care.
i don't even care now.
who does?
Peter Gabriel & Kate Bush -Don't Give Up
the title of this song
is something i could really use right now
...but i love the video....
...two lovers hugging and holding each other...
.very sweet.
Fickle Woman!!!
when i go into stimulation overload,
i shut my blog down for a while
then the next morning i regret it
Saturday, August 7, 2010
It Took 32 Years
nice to finally know what love is
...nice to know i can let someone in...
...someone i want to be in me....
...someone i would want to bake cookies for....
.....and there isn't anyone else alive i'd want to bake cookies for....
....chocolate chip cookies... to see him smile
Friday, August 6, 2010
Christina Aguilera - Not Myself Tonight - Official Music Video
not my usual fare....
...because...
...."i'm not the same girl
i used to be".....
Thursday, August 5, 2010
The Law of Attraction
I'm supposed to be in bed....
but I wanted to say....
thank you, Universe...
thank you, God.
Goodnight.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
The View From Here
This is where I am right now:
And this is what I see:
The view from here is.....
spectacular.
Another Dream
i had another dream about you.
i woke myself up because i was laughing with joy in my sleep.
No Escape
i'm just going to come right out and say it.
i am deeply in love.
so deep, that there isn't a rope or ladder that could reach far enough to get me out.
i don't even know why i try.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Crossroads
...she wants love
she wants pain
she wants warmth
..is she insane?
..no......
she only wants
to feel....
...to no longer fear
not feeling....
..and she's discovered
she does....feel....
....again....
she's come to a crossing...
...two roads...
...with no signs...
she doesn't know
which way to go
...so she'll just sit
where the roads meet...
...if only for a while.
Monday, August 2, 2010
He Leaves a Trail of Breadcrumbs for me
...don't need
to go running back to safety...
...because i am safe...
...no need to grasp
for old familiar faces
to find comfort....
...the only face
that won't let me down
is guiding me home
...all i have to do
...is follow...
...follow him...
Plans
the one that gave me breath
is living flesh and bone
...real...
...time...
it ticks
i wait
i work
goals...
...effort....
...love....
makes it all worth it
and then...
.....
i will be home.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Saturday, July 31, 2010
If You Are Out There....
bettie laurena...
...if you are reading my blog....
....please contact me....
....need help about projections....
....i'm sorry i pushed you away....
....i believe you.....
....i want to push everyone away....
....but not really.....
....i can't reach you on Facebook....
Why It's Make Believe
...it is make-believe
because every ego
puts on a show.
everyone we love
is a projection.
who is real?
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Keep an Eye on Your Heart, Or...
my heart is 475 miles away
and i don't think there is
any way to get it back.
it left when i wasn't looking.
Indecision
let me crawl into my hole
-i feel too weak to deal with things
and i don't have the strength
that you imagine i have.
climbing walls
makes me tired.
when celestial powers
were handing out
fortitude to incoming souls,
i got the short end of the stick.
i'm sorry - forgive me.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Happy Day
my long lost friend
from high school,
a foreign exchange
student from Iceland,
contacted me on Facebook today.
this is a nice surprise
for me because we spent
lots of time together.
we went to lots of
SCA events and
spent nights together.
we were close
and stayed in contact
through snail mail
after her return home
for some time until
losing contact.
for years i couldn't find her.
to know that she remembered
me and thought to find me on
facebook really made my day.
i love facebook.
You Could Be My Unintended
the lyrics to the video in my last post.
certainly worth pointing out.....
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You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She [he] could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She [he] could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you
Monday, July 26, 2010
Truth That Matters
i love my M***** R.
in this world,
that is all that matters.
with that,
i can make it through anything,
and indeed,
every day looks brighter.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Explaining My Last Post
i think i befuddled some readers
with my previous post
perhaps i didn't word it correctly
what i wanted to do was
ask my readers to tell me
what the best brand of absinthe is
because i want to try some
i want the absinthe that
will make me hallucinate
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Honor
no one has ever fought so hard for my cause in my entire life.
i feel i must be sleeping, or dreaming.
all day and all night, not an emotion to speak of..
... cold.... apathy.... numb.....
but one word from my champion and i feel again.
he gives me hope, even when i say there is none.
he gives me courage, even when i think i have none.
each time i fall, he's right there to lift me up.
i pray to God that i can have the strength
to accomplish all that my champion believes i can.
no matter what happens...
it's nice just having someone believe in me.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Numb, But Not Comfortably
today = lack of feeling
i hope it goes away
wouldn't any feeling
be better than no feeling
if only to remind one
that one is alive?
this is not even
a state of depression.
it's a state of nothingness.
i feel no love for anyone.
i feel turned on by nothing.
i do not feel sad
and i do not feel happy.
am i unresponsive?
or is this a type of
non-response response
to distress?
others will think me careless.
i feel careless
yet i know my core cares.
no emotion is put
into this blog post
because i don't feel
any emotion at all.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Drifter
"you are not here"....
... it's been said to me
many times....
that i am "not here"....
....so where am i? i ask...
...."not here".... they say
...i'm a girl who drifts...
but i only go to where
i've longed to be
Monday, July 19, 2010
Devotion
----this time
....there is no doubt....
....there is no question....
....everything before
was only preparation
or a stumbling....
her whole life
she looked up
---searching----
---seeking----
a higher power...
looking to gods
or lesser men
....now she knows
the higher power
that she sought
....and it is not
a fairy tale
from the sky
---no more stumbling
no more fumbling----
from this moment on,
only devotion
Don't Waste Time
Let's not say goodbye to the world without saying hello to each other.
In the blink of an eye it could all be gone.
Eternal regret is not something I wish to feel.
Fallen Flowers -- Steve McDonald
Steve McDonald....
an old hero of mine....
whose music i'd listen
to late at night
as a teenager
-he often brought
me to faraway places.
here are the lyrics to this song:
| There on a misty morning, the sun slowly rised After the Battle at Halidon Hill There lies her youngest son, tears in his eyes Wounded and dying she hears him still Ma, if I could live my life again If I could call the world my friend If I could write the story's end (I would) I would give all these things in vain To feel you hold me once again A smile comes to his face An uneasy calm In front of him, his life flashes by Amidst his boyish charms, he feels his mother's arms In that painless moment, he hears her cry Son, if I could roll back the years If I could see you through these tears If I could face all of my fears (I would) I would give everything in vain Just to hold you once again Remember me forever I'll be here forever Please forget me never I'll be here forever If I could roll back the years If I could see you through these tears If I could face all of my fears Ma, if I could live my life again If I could call the world my friend If I could write the story's end (I would) I would give all these things in vain Just to hold you once again |
Voxis vs Dj andi - To the moon ( Download HD & Versuri )
...flying...
sounds nice
but really...
we don't need airplanes
to fly
:)
Tangerine Dream - Love On A Real Train
you and me....
in our sleeper car
to the west,
to the west
away from here
Tangerine Dream - Girl On The Stairs (rien ne va plus 2001)
would she climb
one hundred flights of stairs
to reach you at the top?
yes she would,
and still climb more.
Brian Eno - Music For Airports
we'd be happy together...
even while waiting
for a delayed flight
listening to airport music
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Trust
new people must pass
rigid tests
before gaining access
to my inner circle.
most lack courage.
most fail.
i want to see him
look down into
the water.
if he has a reflection
he is real.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Roger County Daily Times
An inspiring gift I received recently - more valuable than anything money could buy, for its worth is determined by the currency of the heart.
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Mysterious light disrupts Indiana Farms
A curious meteorological phenomenon has been observed by the National Weather Service in the Indiana region of the United States near the Kentucky border.
The phenomenon was first observed by locals beginning about two weeks ago and consisted of a white glowing aura coming over the horizon. Initial attempts to locate it were unsuccessful. The glow has persisted and grown in intensity to the point where local farmers are dismayed that it is disrupting their farm routines. Roosters are becoming confused about when dawn is actually about to occur and are crowing prematurely, upsetting the daily rhythm of their farms. Other locals complain that their sleep cycles are being thrown off by this persistent and growing light.
The light has increased in intensity in a geometric progression until it is now visible as far away as the East coast.
All attempts to locate the source of this light have been unsuccessful until late today, when there were unconfirmed reports that the source had been traced to one Sophia White, a young woman living in Indiana. The glow is apparently emanating from her heart as it swells with love for her new ****** and the happiness he brings her.
The city council of the town in which she lives is considering a resolution urging her to leave the area so they can all get some sleep again.
Developing….
Friday, July 16, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Making a Difference
he is ideal
and he is real
inspires her to be more
and to do more
awakened the happiness
within her once thought lost
to wear makeup again
and jewelry
to enjoy music again
to leave the house
to exercise
to care about herself
as she had not done
for years
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Eyelid Cinema
Dream One -
I was away from my bike, but desperately wanted to get back to it, before someone stole it.
I had no way of getting to my bike -
"Please, can you take me to my bike?" I asked those around me.
No one would help me.
Then came a man in a car.
After he stopped his car, I found a necklace underneath it - a silver chain with a pink crystal pendant on it.
I asked if it belonged to anyone - I didn't want to keep it if it did.
No one claimed it, so it became mine.
The man driving the car said he would take me to my bike.
Dream Two -
A man was telling me that he could see what I dream at night.
I told him that I didn't believe him.
That night, I dreamed -
The next morning he told me what I dreamed.
Then I believed him.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Notes
Spiritual secrets exist.
How to get unstuck…..
Learning to go past ourselves….
Enter into it, not dig away from it.
We are stuck in what we’ve told ourselves life is about.
All conditions are temporary.
There are no such things as the words “I can’t” in spiritual vernacular.
Real life is fluid change, not cement.
Conviction sets in that “I can’t”.
What stops us is what we don’t understand about ourselves.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Can You Guess?
Anyone want to take any guesses as to what this is a symbol for?The winner gets.... nothing! (except an exceptionally grand moment of pride.)
Wrong Bells
LOL M. thought I was talking about wedding bells in my V post.
I'm embarrassed that I gave that idea.
I meant the bells that town criers ring.
I'll stand by you - The Pretenders (with lyrics)
.... can't sleep.....
...and have to get up early, too.....
A (Brief) Moment of Kindness
don't sleep away your life
or live your life through others.
live your own life,
before it's gone.
you know what i mean.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Vicissitude (I love V words)
It is obvious by now
to all who visit here,
that the recent frequency
of posts to this blog
has been highly prolific.
It is overflow, surely,
as an emotional effect whose
cause should be palpable
by those very few
who know my core.
And like a trumpeter
or town crier,
I would like to blare
it as news to all.
Surely the bells
are ringing.
HELIUM VOLA- omnis mundi creatura
I liked this song so much a few years ago that I had the whole album imported from Germany.
Translation from Latin:
Omnis Mundi Creatura (translation)
"Every creature on earth
resembles a book and a picture,
like looking in a mirror, ×2
Our life, our death
our position in life, our destiny,
faithful symbol.
The rose reflects our position,
a fitting interpretation,
lessons about our life.
While it blooms in the early morning,
its blossoms fade
and petals fall with age.
Our life, our death
our position in life, our destiny,
faithful symbol.
His life, his existence,
his sorrow tribulation and obligation
to end life in death.
Death ends life, sorrow ends laughter
darkness ends daylight, high tide covers the seaport,
morning ends evening.
Mockery drives away the sorrow
worn by the mask of death,
tibulation plays the role of death.
Our first assumption is tribulation,
our second is sorrow,
and then death wins.
Our life, our death
our position in life, our destiny,
faithful symbol. "
"Every creature on earth
resembles a book and a picture,
like looking in a mirror, ×2
Our life, our death
our position in life, our destiny,
faithful symbol.
The rose reflects our position,
a fitting interpretation,
lessons about our life.
While it blooms in the early morning,
its blossoms fade
and petals fall with age.
Our life, our death
our position in life, our destiny,
faithful symbol.
His life, his existence,
his sorrow tribulation and obligation
to end life in death.
Death ends life, sorrow ends laughter
darkness ends daylight, high tide covers the seaport,
morning ends evening.
Mockery drives away the sorrow
worn by the mask of death,
tibulation plays the role of death.
Our first assumption is tribulation,
our second is sorrow,
and then death wins.
Our life, our death
our position in life, our destiny,
faithful symbol. "
Loreena Mckennitt - The Mists of Avalon
Mossy - didn't you say something about a man who could make clouds disappear?
I wonder what you'd think of this. :)
Mozart - Requiem
My soul is stirred by this.... and by you.
Yes, I am transformed. I am alive.... again.
You could say I've been.... resuscitated.
CAPERCAILLIE - AILEIN DUINN
When I was a teenager, this was one of my favorite songs.
I'd play it loud in the car with the windows down.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
My angel, my all, my very self
"You are suffering, my dearest creature - only now have I learned that letters must be posted very early in the morning on Mondays to Thursdays - the only days on which the mail-coach goes from here to K. - You are suffering - Ah, wherever I am, there you are also - I will arrange it with you and me that I can live with you. What a life!!! thus!!! without you - pursued by the goodness of mankind hither and thither - which I as little want to deserve as I deserve it - Humility of man towards man - it pains me - and when I consider myself in relation to the universe, what am I and what is He - whom we call the greatest - and yet - herein lies the divine in man - I weep when I reflect that you will probably not receive the first report from me until Saturday - Much as you love me - I love you more - But do not ever conceal yourself from me - good night - As I am taking the baths I must go to bed - Oh God - so near! so far! Is not our love truly a heavenly structure, and also as firm as the vault of heaven?"
~Beethoven
Symphony No.7 in A Major, Op. 92 II. Allegretto
My favorite Beethoven piece since high school.
Absolutely passionate.
Close Your Eyes
Close your eyes and listen to the video I just posted of Pachelbel's Canon in D Major.
Just do it.
Trust me.
:)
"The Duel" Scene - Electric Dreams Movie
I want to find this movie again. I haven't seen it since I was a kid.
To You, Whom This is Concerned
Quit getting in contact with me using your pseudonyms. You think you have me fooled, but you should know that a good empath can smell a signature all the way from the other side of the universe. Stay out of my life.
(This post is meant for one person. Everyone else please ignore.)
Fly away knights - King Arthur
OK. I have to stop getting high off music tonight. I have focusing to do. :)
Freemasons feat. Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Heartbreak (Make Me A Dancer) [Of...
Heartbreak doesn't make me want to dance, but it's a cool song anyway.
King Arthur: Sadeness
I would love to know the name of the male choir that sings in the background. Is it Gregorian Chants?
Friday, July 9, 2010
Stars Are Made For The Sky (ft. Moya Brennan) - Nassau Royal
I found this video completely by accident.
Never heard of this guy. I was actually looking for Maire Brennan music.
This is a beautiful song... very tender and sensitive.
Knights in Dazzling Sparkly Armor
how nice to know the knight
that she dreamed of
when she was a young girl
and continued dreaming
about as she turned
into a woman.
the age old secret is real-
from out of her dreams
he came.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
'Eclipse (All Yours)' - Metric
yes, i confess
-i like the twilight saga
-and if i was bella,
i'd love both jacob and edward.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Sarah McLachlan - Sweet Surrender
pay attention
to these words.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
t doesn’t mean much
It doesn’t mean anything at all
The life I’ve left behind me
Is a cold room
I’ve crossed the last line
From where I can’t return
Where every step I took in faith
Betrayed me
And led me from my home
And sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
You take me in
No questions asked
You strip away the ugliness
That surrounds me
Are you an angel
Am I already that gone
I only hope
That I won’t disappoint you
When I’m down here
On my knees
And sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
Sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
And I don’t understand
By the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall
I miss the little things
I miss everything (about you)
It doesn’t mean much
It doesn’t mean anything at all
The life I left behind me
Is a cold room
And sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
It doesn’t mean anything at all
The life I’ve left behind me
Is a cold room
I’ve crossed the last line
From where I can’t return
Where every step I took in faith
Betrayed me
And led me from my home
And sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
You take me in
No questions asked
You strip away the ugliness
That surrounds me
Are you an angel
Am I already that gone
I only hope
That I won’t disappoint you
When I’m down here
On my knees
And sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
Sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
And I don’t understand
By the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall
I miss the little things
I miss everything (about you)
It doesn’t mean much
It doesn’t mean anything at all
The life I left behind me
Is a cold room
And sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give
Honesty
because i pride myself
on being honest
- how can i expect
others to be honest
with me if i am not
honest with them -
i have to say
that these days
i am not putting all
my eggs in one basket.
just for the purpose
of safety,
and because it's
always nice
to have a backup plan.
i distract myself - maybe dis-track?
i guess you should know
that my inane ramblings post
was really just a distraction
-not for you but for me
in all honesty,
perhaps a lot of my posts
are really just distractions
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
inane ramblings
can someone please
answer a few questions
for me
first of all
why is it that
every time i finally
decide to buy
a full sheet of stamps
the post office
raises the price
of stamps?
-please don't tell
me to buy the forever
stamps, because i find
those boring
secondly, how can the
same person
win the lottery
four times?
i'm not money
hungry in the least
but i have to admit
it would be nice
to have the kind
of security
and freedom
a lottery winning
would provide
-to be able to
go out with friends
more regularly
without worrying
about spending
more than i have
-which is something
i've started doing again
-going out with friends,
that is
-and it's embarrassing
to have to say i can't
go out as often as they'd
like because i can't afford
it, and to hear them say
they'd pay for me
because i don't want
anyone to pay for me
-that would make
me a leech
-i know i have to
play to win
but i know if i did
play i wouldn't win
-i recently spent
a day in a casino
and could only
allow myself
to spend one
dollar playing
games.
-the good news
is that i won
another dollar,
so i came out with two.
Truth is Stranger than Fiction
holy mary mother of jesus
truth is stranger than fiction
mark twain was right
if you don't believe me
read what i just read
at that website in the
post below
the similarities to
my own life
are too uncanny
and my stomach
is all unsettled again
synchronicity?
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