Just a Hello

I don't really have anything to report on lately. I just wanted to come on and say hello, and to let you know I'm caught-up again with all the comments on the blog. For about a week I got behind. I had a hump to get over. I'll be honest - I haven't felt myself this past week. I've not had the energy that I've had lately, so I was unmotivated to do much of anything except sleep and rest. We have these bumps in life; they're part of the ride. The key to overcoming them is accepting them. I accept that I'll have rough days every now and then. Life is not always a downhill ride; that would make it too easy. We have to push ourselves to make it over the bumps that present themselves to us in life. There are always going to be greener pastures, but if we water our own pasture and give it care and patience, our pasture will soon be green, too.

Elsewhere, for a few months I've had daydreams of opening up my own spiritual gift shop. In it I would sell self-help and spiritual books, books from all sorts of religions, CDs, movies, candles, trinkets, jewelry, art and other similar items - basically I'd sell anything related to spirituality, philosophy and religion. I don't know how I'd get this idea up off the ground. I don't really have any money, and also I have other fears holding me back. While there are no stores like this in my area, except for a Christian book store, I have fears that my store would soon close. Because of this, I don't feel secure giving up my day job to work every day in a store that I am unsure of. My future is uncertain, but I don't want to make it even more uncertain. Are my dreams doomed to just stay dreams?

I have one more piece of news to report today. The walk last Saturday went really well! I took some pictures so I'll probably post a few in the next few days or so. My goal was to raise $100 and I ended up collecting $120! I went beyond my goal, and my husband raised a little bit of money, too. I feel good about contributing my time and energy to a good cause. Overall, I think the March of Dimes walk was a success! There were about 300 people there. The scenery wasn't that exciting, but it was motivational to be in a group with other people working towards the same goal. We walked 4.5 miles. Most of these people were serious walkers, so the pace was quicker than I'm used to walking on my treadmill at home. The first half hour I had a cramp in my left calf muscle, but it disappeared after a while and I was able to quit thinking about it. It was good exercise!

Oh, I also want to say that on May 26th I'll be gone for about seven days. My husband and I are going out west. We'll be in Arizona and then Las Vegas. We're coming home on the 2nd of June. So, you won't see any posts from me then but after I've had a chance to unpack and get situated, I'll come online and answer any comments you made during my absense.

Thanks to Everyone!

I have reached my goal of $100 for the March of Dimes walk that is taking place this Saturday.  Thanks to everyone who donated.  It really means a lot to me that you are supportive of me and this charity.  Walking for a good cause is nice, but it's even better when you have people behind you, supporting you.

I feel uncomfortable asking people for money, but the good feeling I have from knowing that it is going towards a good cause makes it easier.  I see that this is part of a charity worker's business.

Now all that's left to do is to walk four-and-a-half miles!

Dream Date May 8, 2007

I am disappointed because my boss is going into the personal records of another employee and increasing the number of years that employee has worked at my place of work.  He is typing into the computer, under the number of years worked at this establishment, the number "31".  This bothers me because now that he has lied about this employee, it appears that this employee has worked longer at our job and therefore will be chosen first when it comes time to promote someone.  If he had not lied, I would have been the next employee to be promoted.

By "promoted", I do not mean given a higher position, I mean given a permanent status.  In real life, I am only on contract, and not a permanent employee, though it is in my dreams to become a permanent employee.  I've been with them almost five years.

I think this dream stems from my jealousy over the newer and younger employees.  I feel that they are getting more attention than me, when in the past I have always been complimented and rewarded for working diligently.  In fact, one time, when I was sick and had to miss a month of work, my boss asked my husband if  he was "losing his best employee".  It is not so much the attention I am jealous of, it is my fear that my authority figures will bond with the new employees and pull strings to get them hired at a permanent status, when chances are in a couple of years my contract will run out and I will be jobless.

It is not very flattering that I am given to feeling this way.  I have much room for improvement.  Sometimes I pride myself on being someone who is not given to talking negatively about other people.  I pride myself on being a "rumor stopper", meaning that if someone tells me a rumor, I let it stop with me.  I don't spread them.  I should not feel pride on being a "good person", when in fact I have flaws that need to be worked on.

I am imperfect.  Thank you, Universe, for letting me see that.  I know that You will provide for me if ever I am in need.

Visual Tour of Camping Trip, Dog, House and Yard

We went camping this weekend and took D.'s brand new boat on a maiden voyage. My expectations were that we NOT buy an expensive boat, but D. was so set on it for more than a year that it was the only thing I heard about. D. definitely must know the wisdom of The Secret, because he manifested this boat into his life even though I was his counterbalance in this regard. I remember Joe saying something along the lines of, "If something doesn't meet your expectations, change your expectations." So, here we go. My new expectation is that D. enjoys his new boat. Please do not think we are rich because we bought a new boat. If you want to know the truth, we couldn't afford it! I'll be relying on Social Security to buy the groceries when I'm older, trust me. I won't have some fancy retirement because we're not savvy like that. I don't invest, and I hardly put anything into a retirement fund, maybe only $50 a paycheck. I'm just not aware enough of financial matters to be smart enough to do so. My stepmother, the Christian, told me today that The Bible says we should only worry about today. Even though I'm not a Christian I freely admit that The Bible is a source of wisdom.


After the photos of the boating adventure you see a photograph of "The Big P." on our camping trip, then a photo of our house. We moved here right after Thanksgiving in 2003. Then there is the Big Happy Buddha statue that I bought a couple years ago from a local concrete statue manufacturer. The last is a Buddha statue that my aunt - my mom's sister - gave me last year. She has been the source of two other Buddha figurines that I have on display in my house. When I start to think that my family thinks I'm weird for my alternative beliefs, I can just remember my aunt D. who supplied me with some Buddhas. :) (I'm not Buddhist, either, but I am fond of the statues.)

The Law of Attraction

I gave in and bought the unabridged audio book called The Secret. It seems it's the latest fad and everyone's either read the book or seen the movie, at least those with an interest in metaphysical and/or esoteric subjects. I started out listening to it as I walked on the treadmill this evening. I plan on listening to the rest of it each night as I do the same routine. (It seems that listening to an audio book while walking on the treadmill makes the time go by faster.)

From the beginning of the book I think I have an idea of what the rest of the book is going to be about, since they flat out tell me that the secret is basically the Law of Attraction. It seems that with the Law of Attraction, I am simply a magnet that can draw towards me anything I want. Since I already believe that thoughts can manifest one's reality, I don't think the Law of Attraction is far from reality. Just ask my husband, who for the past year or longer has been having daydreams of owning a brand new speed boat. Even though I discouraged the big spending amount, he still ended-up with the boat. OK, I'll get serious. I will admit that something that has been on my mind for quite a while has come true for me. It's personal, so I won't go into it. It doesn't have anything to do with material possessions, though.

I think that thoughts can alter the way we perceive the world. What I mean by this is that a negative person who thinks mostly negative thoughts is going to believe that we live in a bad world. On the other hand, those who think positive and are considered "positive people" will think we live in a good world. If thoughts have the power to alter our perception, how far can they go in altering reality?

What are your thoughts on The Law of Attraction? Has it worked for you? Have you read the book or seen the movie?

Synchronicity Journal May 1, 2007

I just called my dad on the phone. "Dad, do you have Roy Orbison's Essential Collection, the 2-CD set of his remastered songs?" This puts my dad in the mood to turn on the radio. When he turns it on, a Roy Orbison song is playing. My dad laughs in surprise and is tickled that Roy Orbison would be on the radio the moment I called to ask about him. Me? I'm starting to get used to this. It's not getting boring, though. Oh no, it's beautiful synchronicity.